Toxic Endurance →

It is January,
I’m waiting for my daddy,
He promised to be home by seven,
I can play with him then.

Seven turns into eight,
He is very late,
It is now nine at night,
He arrives on his bike!

A mixture of whiskey and sweat,
Half sleepy, half upset,
He remembers where the house is,
But he forgets me and his promise!

I cry and beg for this to stop,
Next time I will be loved,
A girl must be patient!
A girl must be resilient!

It is February,
I’m waiting for my daddy,
He promised to be home by seven,
I can play with him then.

Seven turns into eight,
He is very late,
It is now nine at night,
He arrives on his bike!

A mixture of whiskey and sweat,
Half sleepy, half upset,
He remembers where the house is,
But he forgets me and his promise!

I cry and beg for this to stop,
Next time I will be loved,
A girl must be patient!
A girl must be resilient!

It is now March,
I hope, despite my broken heart,
He promised to be home by seven,
I can play with him then.

Seven turns into eight,
He is very late,
It is now nine at night,
He arrives on his bike!

A mixture of whiskey and sweat,
Half sleepy, half upset,
He remembers where the house is,
But he forgets me and his promise!

I don’t know how to make it stop,
I’m stuck in the loop yearning for love,
A girl masters her hopeless patience!
A girl grows her toxic endurance!

It is now April,
My heart is broken, still,
A girl is willing to spin this loop forever,
One day he will keep his promise to her.

Seven turns into eight,
He is very late,
It is now nine at night,
The day is now without light.

A mixture of whiskey and sweat,
Half sleepy, half upset,
Things were also promised to him,
He himself is also a victim!

Chasing our own tails in the running wheels,
Escaping from how we really feel,
We keep running after the unattainable,
The momentum of desires seems eternal!

A girl must believe in a miracle!
A girl must know the wheel is breakable!

— July 12, 2024 by Moon and Baboon